The sun is shining so beautifully today ~ creating a dazzling display of glitter across the newly fallen snow. We received about two feet over the last couple days and now that winter is truly upon us, we can play in some serious snow piles!
This has been a major time for reflection for me. I am learning so much about myself. I am learning that while I have many moments of weakness, I am stronger than I had originally believed. I am finding that the hardest first steps can lead to a much more peaceful and calm way of living then I had dared hope for. My girls are handling things much more easily than I had originally thought they would. As sad as it is to say, they very rarely saw their father, which has in fact made the transition much more bearable for them. Yes, they are sad. They miss what they would have loved to have had. So do I. It simply wasn't meant to be. In a sense, things are moving forward just as they always did. The three of us, the girls and I, together always and seeing each other through each day. Smiling. Laughing. Living. And each day I feel more and more at ease with him gone. I am feeling free from walls I had built up around my heart. I am hoping to live a fuller, happier and more meaningful existence. Life is so precious, and so very, very short. There isn't enough time to be wasted lost in a void.
Yes, there will be moments of darkness, but I am strong enough to let those moments pass through my heart and carry on. There will be tears and frustrations, fears and worries... followed by revelations, renewed hopes and the warmth of those who stand close by, ready to catch me when I fall.
I must give thanks to all of those who have passed through here and stopped to wish me and my family well. For thoughtful comments, conversations, emails and cards that have brightened my days and seen me through many nights. YOU ARE ALL special friends and I am very lucky and blessed in so many ways.
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend!
Michelle
