I would like to tell you I've been away on holiday, traveling the world and such, sipping Pina Coladas on sandy beaches and taking moonlit walks with some dark, handsome stranger....
Hardly.
I have, in fact, been away in a sense. Not physically, of course. I've got all I can do to go to the local grocery store for milk.
I tend to withdraw and become introverted when I'm not feeling well. I won't make that phone call, accept invitation or open myself up to others ~ all the while knowing that so many people around me DO care and want to see me smile. It's frustrating ~ for them and for me.
Even now, as I write, I find myself questioning what my point is here... I've decided to write, and yet I'm not really allowing myself to show up. Everything I do lately seems to take baby steps. So I suppose this is part of the process of returning from where I've been.
I HAVE been feeling better the last couple days. I've been staying busy: Back to work after almost two weeks off (what a push THAT took!), the girls basketball games have begun and I am finding myself here, there and everywhere trying to keep up, loving it all the while. I've been reading a very good Jodi Picoult book, "Picture Perfect". One that I put down some time ago when I became engrossed in Anita Shreve's "Light on Snow". I've also been doing some watercolor painting. I hope to be finished with something soon, so that I might share it here. One thing about watercolors... You can fix things... I become completely consumed with trying to make something just right. I'll be lucky if I finish something by Spring ::sighing at Spring thoughts:: . How ironic, to use a medium that so thoroughly reflects my approach to how I live my life lately.
Why I've been away... Now that's a loaded question. One that deserves a straight and honest answer. If I had one, I'd be sure to give it. If I figure it out, I'll letcha know.
I shall return.... Momentarily, as a matter of fact. I've received notification of a new "Photo Community" in the neighborhood that I just might quietly slip into...
WISHING YOU ALL A WONDERFUL, HEALTHY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR FILLED WITH HOPE AND PEACE AND BLESSINGS BOTH LARGE AND SMALL!!
Michelle