Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Giving Thanks

These are just a few of the many things I am thankful for.....

1.  My health, and that of my family

2.  My daughters and their playful giggles upstairs

3.  My mom and dad

4.  My husband, when he isn't being a terd

5.  My warm home

6.  The beautiful snowflakes falling out my window

7.  My pets

8.  All my senses

9.  All the yummy food we will be enjoying tomorrow with our family.

10.  All God's wonders, the stars, the moon, the sun, clouds, the wind, and the ability to enjoy it all.

11.  That we are all safe in this moment

12.  Tea and coffee

13.  Music

14.  My work, which fulfills the need to have a purpose and my schedule which allows me to be home when my girls are.

Happy Thanksgiving to all of you and your families!!


Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Light in the Present, Shadows of the Past...

  I am finally beginning to feel better.  Not completely yet.  Just enough to return to school only to gain the sympathy of others as I quietly tiptoe out of the room in fits of coughing to drink from the water fountain.  My hot tea didn't last very long.  I am still a bit hoarse, but I slept quite a bit deeper last night so that aided in getting myself up at 6:30 to shower and get us all ready for school. 

I signed the girls both up for basketball.  This is going to be another juggle.  Karate may have to be slowed down...of course not as far as my bank account is concerned, but that's how it goes.  A will probably have to take into account how much music she will be doing.  May have to cut down there as well.  This is where my SN comes in...back to the frenzied life!  I love to go to all the games though.  Just might not get to them all!!

      To R***,                                                                   

             Never expected to run into you today.  Kind of reminded me of that song....oh, what is it...?  The one where the two old lover's meet up in the grocery store after many, many years apart.  Both older, wiser, and a bit wondrous about what might have been.  The song is by Dan Folgel, I believe.  That's not important.  I used to think of you when that song came on, and there we were tonight, in the grocery store.  Noticing how each other's lines have gotten deeper.  Talking about new interests, how old the kids are now.  It made me think back at how incredibly in love I was, or thought I was, in you.  It was such a passing glimpse of time in our lives.  Only a few short months.  You lived in that crappy apartment on Main Street.  You were so much older.  Maybe that was part of the attraction.  Remember you promised to marry me when I turned 25?  Well, next week I will be 36 and life sure is different then what I had thought it would be at that time in my life!  Don't get me wrong!  I'm happy....mostly.  Heck, we can't be happy all the time.  My girls are my life.  "He keeps me warm and safe and dry....."  There are fleeting moments of love in our relationship.  Wait, I shouldn't be sharing this with YOU!  We have a partnership...we love each other in ways that are different than what we had.  We don't share those kind of things.  The intimate moments without the know.  The laughter, tears, long, hours long talks deep into the night...LIFE!  There is LIFE!  Busy life to be lived!  And yet, when we sit for hours without conversation...oh gosh, I'm really blowing this letter now, aren't I?  I'm not ~  

Wait a minute....did I forget?  YOU lit a torch under my butt and FRIED my A**!!  HE has never fried my A**!!  Close, but I forgave him.  Why?  Because we have a family, and according to my previous quiz, family is the most important thing to me.  What I HAVE means more to me than what I DON'T have!  What a revelation!!!  Thank you for blessing me with your presence at the grocery was a real eye opening experience!  I'll remember you, as I always do.  The one that broke my heart.  The one that made me a fool.  The one that lead me to where I am now.  

Thanks...   <3   Michelle               




Sunday, November 13, 2005

Family is most important in your life.

Having a high focus on family indicates that you are a loving and nurturing person. You want to have a nice big family of your own, and you are very close with your siblings and parents.

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Take this quiz at

I know.  I'm overdoing the quiz thing lately.  I suppose it's good that I have little news is good news, right?  I am quite ill this weekend.  I've been battling laryngitis since Wedsnesday and I now have a horrendous cough.  I went to work on Thursday unable to speak so that my afternoon little kinder wouldn't have to be without me on our field trip. (She stresses very easily and gets very upset when confronted with new sounds/places/people, etc.)  Her mom ended up going with us, so really I didn't have to be there, and now I may call in tomorrow.  My cough is really awful.  No one would want me there I'm sure of that.  All the kids were so concerned about me on Thursday.  It was really so sweet.  Hope I didn't give it to anyone.  The laryngitis seems to be making it's way around the staff.  I've been making lots of soups and drinking tea.  Cough meds are working somewhat....I'll be better soon.

With Christmas around the corner, the girls are bombarding me with the "I wants".  No matter how many days we go to church a year, the whole meaning of Christmas seems to fly right by their heads.  The DO take part in the pageant, which is a plus, I suppose.  They both still believe in Santa.  Yes, my oldest is 11.  I think she may just be going along with it so she can keep asking for all these expensive gifts....ipod, stereo, cell phone, more clothes!!

Speaking of it, she is now in the room, so I must change the subject...

M is asking for more American Girl things...that's Nana's department...thanks, mom. 

They both think it's cool to like music that I find quite inappropriate...sure, it has a cool beat.  Great, realistic issues in the lyrics...minus the sex.  Sorry, I have to draw the line.  Sex and the F word are just not  happening in this house for a few years, anyway.  At least not in THEIR rooms!!  When I was a teenager I'm quite sure I would be listening to Black Eyed Peas, Eminem, Snoop Dog, etc...and I actually DO like The Black Eyed Peas, with the exception of "My Humps".  That song makes me cringe to the point of shriveling.  Good beat.  Too much humps and lumps for my liking...yes, unbelievably, I have become a prude.  I looked up some of Eminem's lyrics online and I was appalled.  And young kids even my 8 year old's age are listening to this....this is a parent issue.  Free country, I suppose.  But why not just take them to an x rated movie?  Okay, NOT trying to step on any toes here....I love everything from Piano solos to hip hop, within reason. 

Babble, babble...trying to hurry.  Have to run. <<cough>>


Friday, November 11, 2005

Fun and The Holiday

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There!  Phew!  That was a mouthful.  So, if you want to check it out yourself here is a link:

Thanks to Pixiedustnme  for the link.


So, it's Veteren's Day...a day off from work, school, and more importantly a day to reflect on what is happening in the world that has our soldiers dying every day.  I have tried, Lord knows, to understand what we are there and to support our president, as he is our countries leader, and even though I did not vote for him, I try to move on and look for SOMETHING to like about him.  I support our troops.  I believe they are doing everything in their power to protect and rebuild this other country.  I know that Saddam is a monster.  I have watched in horror at the documentaries made showing what he did to his own people ~ men, women and children.  I also know that many Iraqis have died, men, women and children.  I ask myself, and my God, why do we think we are going to be loved and welcomed over there after all the bombing we did back in the beginning?  I know I will probably be bombarded with comments after this, people who support Bush and this war will undoubtably have something to say, and I honestly don't mean any unpatriotic or unsupportive.  I am a peaceful person....and I simply don't understand.  We started something we can not get out of.  We can't walk away. 

I want to say THANK YOU to all our troops, home and away.  You are doing an amazing thing, giving up your freedom for ours and our neighbors all over this planet.  Some of you believe in the cause, others may not.  But you are hononable to the core.  THANKS.

Hope all of you enjoy the rest of your weekend! 

PEACE,  Michelle 



Sunday, November 6, 2005

A quiet Sunday afternoon


So often I think of something I want to write in my journal...then when my free moment arrives, I sit here staring at this blank, white space....if it could laugh, it would.  The week has been pretty uneventful.  Except of course Halloween, which was a blast.  We had friends over for pizza and to join us on our journey through town.  This young girl is my youngest daughter's best friend and she has Juvenille Diabetes.  Her sugar went to 398, and those of you who watch your blood sugar know this is very high.  A bit of a scare.  Her mom had to go home and get her a set change.  She is connected to an insulin pump that distributes her insulin after she eats.  Apparently, the tube was bent and she hadn't gotten any insulin since before lunch.  This was so scary, and yet it has happened so many times...even when she has been overnight and once her sugar was over 500.  It is times like these when I sit back and say, "thank you, dear Lord."  Once her set was changed, the girls went about their business of trick or treating, devoured much candy, and danced to Radio Disney.  A went with a friend.  Alone.  In said friend's neighborhood.  Yeah.  I was relieved when she walked through the door.  I am definetly NOT ready for the independence that is naturally coming her way.  She, of course, thinks she is more than ready.  Simply HAS to have a cell phone.  This trick or treat night was her first solo flight.  I told her the cell phone would come later....even though "all" her friend's have one, at 11 yrs old, she is not quite there yet.  Neither is my wallet!

This week has had it's share of ups and downs.  I'm still trying to sort things out.  At work, at home, and in my heart.  I have a poem to write for Poetry Dance.  Maybe I can reflect on what's in my quiet place as I write this poem.  Hope all of you are having a relaxing weekend!

                                             Okay, I cannot get this picture to turn right, get the jist of it!!