Thursday, February 22, 2007


With a little inspiration from Gretchen in Savannah, here are my thanksgivings today, this "Thankful Thursday"...

1.  I am thankful that the air is warm and sweet today.  A reminder that spring ~ new beginnings ~ are just around the corner.

2.  I am thankful that Mailee's 103.3 temperature is gone and that she is happily playing in her room as I write.

3.  I am thankful for every minute that my heart feels lighter, yet stronger.  Vulnerable, yet protected.  By me.

4.  I am thankful for each day that those I love and hold dear are kept safe, healthy and free from life's burdens.

5.  I am thankful for friends who help me see more clearly what, in fact, I should be thankful for.

Thank you.



Saturday, February 17, 2007

Day By Day


The sun is shining so beautifully today ~ creating a dazzling display of glitter across the newly fallen snow.  We received about two feet over the last couple days and now that winter is truly upon us, we can play in some serious snow piles!

This has been a major time for reflection for me.  I am learning so much about myself.  I am learning that while I have many moments of weakness, I am stronger than I had originally believed.  I am finding that the hardest first steps can lead to a much more peaceful and calm way of living then I had dared hope for.  My girls are handling things much more easily than I had originally thought they would.  As sad as it is to say, they very rarely saw their father, which has in fact made the transition much more bearable for them.  Yes, they are sad.  They miss what they would have loved to have had.  So do I.  It simply wasn't meant to be.  In a sense, things are moving forward just as they always did.  The three of us, the girls and I, together always and seeing each other through each day.  Smiling.  Laughing.  Living.  And each day I feel more and more at ease with him gone.  I am feeling free from walls I had built up around my heart.  I am hoping to live a fuller, happier and more meaningful existence.  Life is so precious, and so very, very short.  There isn't enough time to be wasted lost in a void. 

Yes, there will be moments of darkness, but I am strong enough to let those moments pass through my heart and carry on.  There will be tears and frustrations, fears and worries... followed by revelations, renewed hopes and the warmth of those who stand close by, ready to catch me when I fall. 

I must give thanks to all of those who have passed through here and stopped to wish me and my family well.  For thoughtful comments, conversations, emails and cards that have brightened my days and seen me through many nights.  YOU ARE ALL special friends and I am very lucky and blessed in so many ways.

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend!


Tuesday, February 6, 2007

Away For Now

I'm taking a moment to let all who pass by here know that I am needing to turn off my alerts and make better use of my other journal for a time.  Life altering events are taking place right now, and I am unable to keep up with my alerts.  I had a full mailbox when I came online today, and I needed to delete them all.  I hope to be back here, but it probably won't be for a while, and wish to encourage those who know of my other journal to visit me there, and to welcome anyone who wishes to please email me for a link.  I will be visiting your journals as time permits, and wish all of you well each and every day.

I hope to be back soon!!