Sunday, October 14, 2007

An Upward Gust of Wind

This entry is a sequel of sorts to a private entry I made on a night when my heart was feeling weak and a bit caught up in a whirlwind.  I know many of you visit me there as well as in this space and I thank you for keeping up with all my ever changing moods and soul searchings.  I'm feeling the upward gust of a warm, comforting wind today, therefore my smiles are genuine and easy.

Life is filled to the brim with uncertainties and that fact is unchanging!  I suppose that uncertainty should be welcomed, for if we knew what tomorrow would bring, there would be very little purpose in striving to reach it.  I for one, trust myself more than I have in a long time.  I have reached a milestone in my search for truth in the mirror (see journal description) and I have made some very important decisions for myself that highly impact those people who live in my heart.

Even on the darker days, I remain hopeful.  On brighter days, hopeful still!  My children are coming to terms with the divorce and are thriving at school and in their general lives.  They smile FAR more often than not, and we are enjoying the excitement that this time of year brings.  I don't think there has been a damaging word between us ~ or between them ~ for weeks now!  And that is a major accomplishment!

So many blessings fill my life.  While many of life's challenges are out of my hands, I have come to know the difference between what I can and cannot change.  One thing that cannot and will not, is that my heart shall from now on be my guide. 

Where it might guide me has yet to be determined, but I will enjoy this beautiful ride for what it's worth.  Which ultimately, is everything.

 

11 comments:

tendernoggle said...

You said this well. I hope you have many, many more days like this one.
love ya,
carlene

pippa1116 said...

lovely entry!
tina

grofsand said...

How wonderful that your spirits have you evoking smiles and peaceful thoughts! The "seas of change" have many powerful under currents, they seize are rudder and play havoc to the captain at the wheel!
Steady on...calmer seas lie ahead...and should you ever pass through another "sea of change", you will be the wiser for it!

Life is about...healing and mending.....
I'm admiring your steady recovery!     Marc :)

grofsand said...

How wonderful that your spirits have you evoking smiles and peaceful thoughts! The "seas of change" have many powerful under currents, they seize are rudder and play havoc to the captain at the wheel!
Steady on...calmer seas lie ahead...and should you ever pass through another "sea of change", you will be the wiser for it!

Life is about...healing and mending.....
I'm admiring your steady recovery!     Marc :)

queeniemart said...

i have tears reading this. I dont know if you know how wise you are....how far you have come.....you are finding PEACE my friend and WOW, that is something some never know. I am so happy for you and i love you so.

lj

nhd106 said...

Chelle,
An inspiring entry indeed....
Of course, now i'm curious as to WHAT inspired you to write this...or more imporantly, to feel this way.  In any case, I'm glad you are in a good place.
Btw...did you take that rose pic??

Love you,
Nance

radar446 said...

It looks like things are finally settling down, and you are starting to enjoy life again.  I'm so glad to hear that, not that I doubted this day would come.  Nevertheless, I'm quite happy for you and your children.

Greg

siennastarr said...

You sound like you are really moving forward, Chelle' in every aspect of your life. Change is not always welcome in our every day existence, but a necessary part of life.  We need it to grow.  And you are growing, as are your kids.

It's always nice to see that light at the end of the tunnel, isn't it??

Hugs and love,

Jackie
http://journals.aol.com/siennastarr/Hopefloats/

canyonsun04 said...

I am happy to hear things are going well :), better that is.
hugs
Ang

tammyndavid@frontiernet.net said...

Hi Michelle!

Dave loves this rose does it have a name?  Happy post!!!!

HUGS
Tammy

stupidsheetguy said...

We pass so many things on our journey, and once in a while, it's nice to happen upon a place that's warm and friendly. Those are the times we really get to cherish, because sometimes it takes a lot of effort to get to them. I'm glad you found a little oasis to hang out in. Enjoy!