I would like to tell you I've been away on holiday, traveling the world and such, sipping Pina Coladas on sandy beaches and taking moonlit walks with some dark, handsome stranger....
I have, in fact, been away in a sense. Not physically, of course. I've got all I can do to go to the local grocery store for milk.
I tend to withdraw and become introverted when I'm not feeling well. I won't make that phone call, accept invitation or open myself up to others ~ all the while knowing that so many people around me DO care and want to see me smile. It's frustrating ~ for them and for me.
Even now, as I write, I find myself questioning what my point is here... I've decided to write, and yet I'm not really allowing myself to show up. Everything I do lately seems to take baby steps. So I suppose this is part of the process of returning from where I've been.
I HAVE been feeling better the last couple days. I've been staying busy: Back to work after almost two weeks off (what a push THAT took!), the girls basketball games have begun and I am finding myself here, there and everywhere trying to keep up, loving it all the while. I've been reading a very good Jodi Picoult book, "Picture Perfect". One that I put down some time ago when I became engrossed in Anita Shreve's "Light on Snow". I've also been doing some watercolor painting. I hope to be finished with something soon, so that I might share it here. One thing about watercolors... You can fix things... I become completely consumed with trying to make something just right. I'll be lucky if I finish something by Spring ::sighing at Spring thoughts:: . How ironic, to use a medium that so thoroughly reflects my approach to how I live my life lately.
Why I've been away... Now that's a loaded question. One that deserves a straight and honest answer. If I had one, I'd be sure to give it. If I figure it out, I'll letcha know.
I shall return.... Momentarily, as a matter of fact. I've received notification of a new "Photo Community" in the neighborhood that I just might quietly slip into...
WISHING YOU ALL A WONDERFUL, HEALTHY AND HAPPY NEW YEAR FILLED WITH HOPE AND PEACE AND BLESSINGS BOTH LARGE AND SMALL!!