Friday, July 11, 2008

To Top It All Off....

"So, are you going to have a car tomorrow, or what?  'Cuz H. wants me to come over, and I need a new charger for my cell phone since you ran over it with the vacuum cleaner, and we want to do something else, and ....."

Somebody stop me......

This, at the end of a day I've been struggling to ignore. 

I guess it's too much to ask, that my teenager be appreciative of all that I've done for her this week.  The money I spent getting the paint she wanted for her room (even though technically we're not allowed to paint the walls here) and the time I took to help her finish it.  The camp-out I planned for us (more money), with all the fixin's for a night under the stars.  The one we are supposed to be at right now, but aren't because after packing the car all up this morning, it died again.  This, after spending half of what remains of my summer funds to have it fixed just days ago.  This, after spending the day trying to think of something to do to make up for it.  THIS, just moments after coming in the door from walking 3 miles to and from Dairy Twirl so her little sister could have an ice cream cone (and don't think for a minute I didn't have one myself!).  Not to mention everything else that's gone wrong this week.

I'm just plain pissed off ~ and I rarely write when I'm pissed off.  Shocking, I know.

She's in her room sulking now, because I asked her to get up off the couch (for the first time today) and pick things up a bit.  She's been sleeping in the living room since we finished painting, not wanting to over-exert herself and get it done with. 

I AM the meanest mother in the world, you know.

I understand she's disappointed about a lot of things right now.  So am I.  The difference is, I'm finally allowing it to show.  Consider the rules broken. 

Thank you, I feel much better now. 

::sigh::

17 comments:

frankandmary said...

I know you probably don't want to hear this right now, but your entry is blackly hilarious. I'm not laughing at you, but at your letting it out exactly as you should, THE MOM RANT.

That is healthy.  

The stuff she does appreciate, she might not let you know, cause, like, if she can make you feel GUILTY maybe she gets even more stuff her way ;-0.  

You are a good mother, with a hard road right now. You have a right to be upset, & it WILL get better. ~Mary

inafrnz247 said...

Let it be known that....  I love that Mary.

chat2missie said...

I think we should have support groups for parents of teenagers! LOL
Missie

mariebm56 said...

When I read your entries, it brings back many memories.  
They're not going to like us all the time, but they will ALWAYS love us !
Stay strong~
Hugs~
Marie

queeniemart said...

ah yes, the days of you are the mom that sucks the most on earth and their life is ruined and how dare YOU let the car die or run out of money when THEY want to do something. Been there, and still living it to some degree. It gets worse.  :)

the "i hate you's" is always fun too.

I love you and i think you are cute when you rant. Ranting is good my friend. I pray pray pray the dumb car is fixable soon and cheaply.
XOOX

nhd106 said...

UGH....you've had a rough spell.    Sorry to hear it's gotten rougher and that the teen girl is giving you grief.  But a good rant is good for the soul now and then.  Let's hope your luck turns around very soon!

Love,
Nancy

rdautumnsage said...

I remember those days...mine, pretty much went with her stomping up the stairs, slamming her door hard enough to feel it all the way downstairs. All while shouting I HATE YOU...I once commented I thought it highly unfair we got the attitude and scene stealers from our kids, and everyone else got to enjoy the nice mannered lovely child (We could swear was an alien in disguise because we didn't recognize them).

Guess what hon, it does get better (alot better). She's a teenager she can't let you in on how she truly feels about you, that would be so utterly un-cool. Your a great mom and I was so relieved to see you get this off your chest. It feels better doesn't it? If you need to read something that is a testament of that...my latest entry confirms it.(Hugs)Indigo

dbdacoba said...

Oh, Michelle, I'm so sorry your plans were spoiled by the car.  That's heartbreaking.  I hope you managed to have a good day anyway.

mleighin21st said...

It does you good to blow off alittle steam, and frustration.  I  hope things get back on a more even keel and that the car troubles aren't too great.  
                                                                                            Leigh

 

radar446 said...

Sounds like you needed to vent a little bit, and that is just fine.  Teenagers can be a handful on a good day, but when you add in all the other "little" stressors of life, it can sure tend to be a bit overwhelming.  Just be sure and take a few minutes out of the day and distance yourself from everything for a bit.

Greg

flossiepumpkin said...

THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I READ UR JOURNAL. YOU SHOULD ALWAYS WRITE WHEN U ARE "PISSED". THE BEST COMES OUT. I KNOW, THATS WHEN I WRITE MY BEST, (I THINK) HOPE TO SEE U AGAIN..ROBERTA

breezyneon said...

The "Meanest Mother" badge is one all moms have worn... This too shall pass!!
It was good to see you vent and with a sense of humor!!

~~Breezy

siennastarr said...

Good for you!  Vent away, Chelle!  You're entitled!  

I swear, our kids, at that age, have no concept of money.  They just think there is an abundance of it at all times.  
It's very disheartning when we do so much for our children and they just don't seem to "get it."  We raise them to be appreciative... to say thank you... and to not be self centered.. but, somehow it all goes down the toilet at times.  

I've been where you are, Chelle...  so you are not alone.  Raising our kids alone is not an easy thing, and I know, from what you write, that your girls are the world to you, and you do everything in your power to make their lives easier.

Hang in there, my sweet friend... it does get better..  

Hugs and love
Jackie
http://journals.aol.com/siennastarr/Hopefloats/

buckoclown said...

That is one of the things about J-Land, you can vent with no consequence :o)

geminiwilder said...

oh, my.  i can only empathize. i have a pre-teen who is now beginning to smartmouth me.  and of course, already raised 3 others who were each a challenge in their own special way, lol.  the obvious difference is, they are all boys.
i think i may be a little bit grateful of that fact.

i'm so sorry about your car. and your trip not happening. so awful. when it comes to cars, let me tell you, when it rains - it pours. mine is such a piece o' crap i can't even think about it.

keep looking for those breezes, i guess.  xo phin

sunflowerkat321 said...

They talk about the terrible twos but it should be the terrible teens!  The good news is that it passes and everyone survives.

lifes2odd said...

I'm the same way, rarely writing when I feel that way. It's ok to let it all out sometimes!! I read ahead, glad things have settled down and all is well with your daughter. Hugs, Martha