Strength and Resolve

                                      

Another entry from me to thee...  From the mouth of a silly 'ole bear,
"it's been a rather blustery day today".  I love it, I must admit, but I feel for the hundreds who have lost power in our area in the last day or so.  Yesterday rains pounded down relentlessly, leaving the trees almost bare and the roads slippery, causing many accidents.  I drove through about two feet of water last night along our road.  A very strange sensation to be driving along and then feel like your tires have just been pulled out from under you.  Now the rain has stopped but the wind is as fierce as can be.  My daughter awoke in the night and thought it was aliens...  I haven't heard the roar of winds such as these in a long time.

I spent much of the day relaxing.  Reading and writing between loads of laundry.  The girls carved their pumpkins this evening and I will post some photos of the great masterpieces another time.  The seeds are currently roasting in the oven... mmmm...  my favorite part of pumpkin carving!

Thank you for the many thoughtful comments concerning my previous entry.  I do believe that the time has come to stop.  To stop spending so much time trying to convince myself to live life and just DO IT.  I plan to focus on the good things.  The beautiful aspects of my life.  Not on the confusing, hurtful and seemingly endless battles I have previously chosen to dwell on.  I know it is within my power to move beyond what is pain and rise above the shadows of my soul.  There is light and brilliance in life that I have yet to find.  And the happiness I do have, right here in front of me is what I must cling to.  It simply has to be enough.  For now.

I need to show my girls what it means to have strength and resolve.  They will need it someday, perhaps more than I.  I plan to be the one to show them that it is within themselves, as I know it is within me.  I have many people in my life who love me and care about me.  I am extremely fortunate for this, and for the ability to recognize it.  Many don't, and walk around in a complete and constant haze.  Not me. 

Okay, that's enough profound thoughts for now.  I hope you're all enjoying your weekend!  It goes by WAY too fast.